THE QUIET ROAR

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   I am writing this entry for the leader of the heart camp I go to. By the title you all know that I am talking about Toby. Toby is a very multi talented person not only does she help organize the camp every year but she has many creative skills. She has started to make face masks for the pandemic we are going through. She also is an incredible baker. She makes delicious cakes for sure they are simply amazing. 

 She has so much fun at camp like we all do. It is a chance to be with people with our conditions and we know what we are going through. It is nice to hear everybody's story.

 As I thought about the title you may have asked why the quiet roar, well I had thought about this and Toby has a very low voice. However her low voice is something that everybody hears when she speaks. Just because you don't hear her as loudly as everybody else this doesn't mean her voice wont carry. When she wants to make a point she will get it across.

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