AED

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  These letters are very familiar to people who have seizures and suffer from epilepsy. However in this entry i won't be using those letters in that context. Well not fully anyway, you will see as I go through .

 The A is not for anti in this situation as a matter of fact it is anxiety. This is something that can make you stare shake and feel like your world is spinning 100 miles an hour. You also get breathing problems or I do just like many experiences of a panic attack. This so often leads into a seizure of two, that's why I try and keep as calm as I can. 

 The E of course is for epilepsy. Right now I'm trying to keep my seizures under control in a better way. Or at least in a very close way. As long as my anxiety doesn't hit I can usually stay calm.

On average im still getting my usual one or two smaller seizures a day. But I'm sort of happy with it as I'm not wiped totally. It was when I was getting between 3 and 6 smaller ones and complex that wiped me.

 The D is depression. Some days nowadays I just have such a hard time. I go on mental breaks at times and need long stretches of time to myself. Time where I can clear out and just relax. Otherwise my mind will just be a cloud and won't be same. 

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