ANOTHER EPILEPSY/DEPRESSION LINK ENTRY

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  Medications 💊 are such a joyful and wonderful thing aren't they my fellow warriors? I mean seriously in someway's they are awesome because they help control our seizures. Then we have the other side of coin where we can experience anxiety and depression due to meds. Not always fully due to meds of course like it could be weather could be an awful conversion or could just be a strange trigger.

 I have never been one to control all my emotions because of my epilepsy and my depression, this always has been a huge issue in all of my relationship's. It was especially huge last relationship I had because at times it was so explosive. I'm not saying the explosion points weren't my fault at times truly I will own up.

 However in my last it seemened like buttons were pushed unintentionally for me and I would erupted. Things like this were never good for me that was for sure. I would either have days of bad bad seizures or days where I would shut the world out. 

 There were people who got concerned and I really appreciated it for sure. It was amazing how much I learned about myself eye opening  for sure. Thanks everyone you are awesome on this journey. I've learned so much about depression and epilepsy in I'd say the last 5 years.

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  1. Sarah gilbertDecember 12, 2020 at 3:41 AM

    I think its shame, if that's the right word. I believe neurologist and doctors should be clear from the beginning, what with epilepsy and depression certainly are one terrible mix, im not even goin to mention all the rest that we get....like my neurologist informed me when I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia ""it is part and parcel of epilepsy did you not know?!""Obviously not.
    I can understand 100 % with all you have put. If it wasn't for all the excellent people out there like yourself sharing your stories i dread to think how I would be. Tc stay safe #seizurefree

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