MY FEELING OF BEING ON THE DEATH STAR. TRAPPED CAUSING SEIZURES DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY

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  During everything that has been going on my triple storm really has a way of kicking in. Especially in the last couple of day's. I went on a great seizure free run one of my best eve. I have to admit that I was quite surprised especially with everything going on. Especially seeing how my seizures are really triggered by stress. So is my anxiety as a matter of fact. 

 Now Matt and Steph will get this for sure. Well I'm pretty sure everybody will get it. Lately I have been feeling like I was a combination of Princess Leia blasting the panel to jump in compactor. Right to Luke Chewbacca and Han trying to stop the walls. But getting nowhere  everything slowly crunching. Sometimes this causes anxiety when I need to scream hit something.

 However my best thing is working out. I love working out and my gym used too be a huge part of my life. But now its  gone except for small ones I can get in at home. 

 When things play out in my mind especially the selfish things that nobody has been able to do. Like I haven't seen a friend since the pandemic began. I have no car because of seizures so I was never able  to do.

 I haven't had one social distance visit as none of my friend's are close 95% live in Toronto a joyful 45 55 minute drive, or train ride. I can't use any transit now in the stage we are in like most. But even before I couldn't because of my chd. 

 I have one friend that I have seizures beyond seizures with because they keep saying how easy it is to deal with everything. Last week I ssid go F yourself and hung up. That's not me its my anxiety stress and depression exploding on a friend and it doesn't help they are sensitive to begin with.

 I hope like everyone the walls stop soon. And the hatch opens up for us. 

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