NOCTURNAL SEIZURES

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  I always used to think about the seizures I would have awake and out. Especially the ones that I would remember or at least semi remember, I have to be honest there are days when I would prefer to forget everything. Then it would like the seizure or seizures didn't happen at all. But I also realize I can help so many with the things I actually do remember. 

 For about the last 11 years I have been having nocturnal seizures. However they usually I'd say 8/10 times happen at night or say around 4 a.m. time. I do have them during my nap in afternoon and that I know might sound odd can throw my night off.

 I will say I have had them get worse over the last 7.5 8 years. This was the stretch of my last relationship, now that it is over yes I do still get them. The ones I was getting was from relationship now I'm getting from all the days. Being locked down and the covid news I hear mom dad talk about almost daily. Or I hear there t.v  and news.

 So what do my nocturnal seizures feel like? Well ok I will give it a shot. Sometimes I feel like my arms and legs are soar beyond belief other times I feel like my body is frozen and as stiff as a 2X4. Thrb I have them where I feel like I'm floating. Like my body is not in my bed. Or I've had them where in bed I feel scared. The scared is a newer one probably in last 4 years. Those are my nocturnal seizure feelings 

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