LEVELED SEIZURES

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  These days I'm am still getting my "typical" seizures. I also tend to rate quite a bit in the type of seizures I have. I will Either have 2 or 3 absent in a day or some days 2 or 3 complex in a day. However I'm not always remembering myself having them, or I don't feel postictal. That why I don't always say I've had one or write it down. But I still know they happened from either my head or body.

 So now to the point of them cutting down ever since I have found more and more about me on my LGBTQ side my body isn't as tense and I think that is one thing that has helped cut down my number of seizures. Another thing that helped my seizure count lower, and it was surprising to me at first is Jennifer and I are talking again. I'm finding things 100% different this time like we are both new people. 

 I think that's because I'm fully out and everybody I know, I mean everybody I know now knows. Not just my friends but all my family sister friends my brother in laws family and all of my parents friends mom and dad. 

 So I think yes I'm still having my seizures but at same time there has been no increase. And to be honest at first I thought there might have been. But we've been chatting for a while now and I'd say she is in the top 5 of people who support me about my coming out. That was a bit of stun at first so cool. 

I'm just so happy that everything is on a good level. Its the best place we've been at in along time.

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