BEEN MISSING DIFFERENT PEOPLE IN DIFFERENT WAYS

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 I had plans that will never happen now and have been looking at life so much differently. First off I must say rest in peace 🙏 James as seeing you after the pandemic was something I was really looking forward to. Especially seeing how the only time we got to see each other was at camp or during camp events. You turned into such an amazing funny friend in the brief time that I knew you. 
 Even before your passing I was missing you as our communication became less and less. At first I wasn't sure why then I found out how serious things were. You even in our brief conversations brought so much peace and joy to me and my heart has been aching for this whole month. I miss you buddy you were a great friend in so many ways.
  Of course I miss all of Thursday night poker friend's however two I miss and really notice. I will start off with Ken sure he can be a bit annoying at times. But he has been there ever since I have known him and he surprised me to a degree when I came out. I wasn't sure too be honest how he was going to receive it or if things would be different. I was so relieved to see that nothing changed.
 The other person I will chat about from poker is Eileen, because if it wasn't for her I never would have had the nerve to tell ken. She has also been there through so much even online she truly has been awesome. I hope we get back to playing live again soon so we can catch up. The whole castle crew.
  Then if course I have to mention Katherine once again I would only get to see her every year once a year, but those three days because of our amazing friendship felt like two weeks sometimes. It looked like things were getting fully better for a while and camp had the outside chance of happening this year. No such luck however but it will be virtually done once again so that is something. I will get to see Katherine for dinner next month that will be nice 
 The final person I am going to mention is my ex gf Jennifer. Who during all of this has turned into an amazing friend. J have thought about the good and the bad and yes there was so much of both, but I decided with the way things are the good things outweighed the bad things plus we have both apologized on all fronts and cracked a brand new friendship.
 At tge same time much of it has picked up from before and we both have seen that maybe this was what meant to be rather than dating. Don't get me wrong there were many parts when we dated that were beyond good excellent even. Right now it is  just a more natural flow to things.
 If and when we can do something like when our numbers settle and we can travel. We definitely will go to Toronto do our favorite book stores gaming cafes and all. Just right now with limited capacity and a plateau number sort up down its very hard. 
 It will be nice as I know Jess and the gaming crew are looking forward to seeing people again. So now just wait and see

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