FUSES AND TIME.

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  Last night/early this morning was not fun while I was sleeping. My fuses blew twice, by the way I don't meant fuses in the house. No I'm talking about the fuses in my brain and I had two seizures while in bed. When I fully woke up and came to you could have thought I either wet my bad three times over or my clothes were like I cleaned up a spill. Especially my t shirt. 

 I have had seizures like this before so it's not really a new experience for  me. As a matter of fact I have been having nocturnal seizures now for few years.  I have to admit sometimes I really prefer them as I don't know until the next day. The only way I knew I had the two last night today was sometimes I have a memory of the start 8/10 times I don't.

 Well last night was one of the rare times I remembered the start of both of seizures. To describe my seizures when I am in bed my eyes open I run my hands chest face. I have three pictures on my wall that look like they are on top of me. The ceiling is almost on me. It may only be 30 seconds to say 2 or 3 minutes. But so much happens with your body and the walls you feel like you've lost a few hours sometimes even a full day. I know today I will be drained and wiped hope you all have a great day. 

   Q J. Signing off. 

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  1. Sarah gilbertAugust 14, 2021 at 12:47 AM

    I know what you mean by most of the time it's in the morning you can tell if seizures have happened during the night. Also when the nocturnal one wake you it's like an out of body experience, if that makes sense.

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